Saudi Trauma Lyrics
I feel like I’m the last trapper left.
Sawfside.
I lost umalum’wam’ last year, couldn’t even cry.
I wonder why.
My heart so cold that you can see the pain even in my smile.
I know so many people who’ll never see they daughter grow up.
I know some more who died before they baby mama gave birth.
Ma’ ndiyabulela, you should’ve aborted me.
Ndazalwa uxakekile, ngapha unemployment.
I lost umalum’wam’ last year, couldn’t even cry.
I wonder why.
My heart so cold that you can see the pain even in my smile.
I know so many people who’ll never see they daughter grow up.
I know some more who died before they baby mama gave birth.
Ma’ ndiyabulela, you should’ve aborted me.
Ndazalwa uxakekile, ngapha unemployment.
Had me a year after my brother.
You were supposed to get an abortion.
I’m just saying there’ll never be a day you regret it.
My n*gga gone can’t raise his.
Treat my mama like my daughter yeah.
My niece my daughter, ng’saphila ain’t a thing azoyiswela yena.
Indlel’ enzima ing’tandile.
Ihlez’ iz’khethela mina what can I say.
Ngi’indoda umehluko ukuthi bade I ain’t never been scared to die.
You can tell by my eyes.
You can tell even by the way I smile.
Ya kukhon’ inhlungu lana ez’sithele.
I lost umalum’wam’ last year, couldn’t even cry.
I wonder why.
My heart so cold that you can see the pain even in my smile.
I know so many people who’ll never see they daughter grow up.
I know some more who died before they baby mama gave birth.
Ma’ ndiyabulela, you should’ve aborted me.
Ndazalwa uxakekile, ngapha unemployment.
I lost umalum’wam’ last year, couldn’t even cry.
I wonder why.
My heart so cold that you can see the pain even in my smile.
I know so many people who’ll never see they daughter grow up.
I know some more who died before they baby mama gave birth.
Ma’ ndiyabulela, you should’ve aborted me.
Ndazalwa uxakekile, ngapha unemployment.
I ran out of money, ran out of some friends too.
Deserted the apartment, bese ngayikhomba eSoweto.
And I did what I said I would if I ever go broke.
I get in my feelings when rappers say they sold dope.
(R.I.P Citi n*gga)
I ran into money, ran into some issues.
This money drew a wedge between mina nabantu.
I love more than I love myself that’s where I went so wrong.
Forgive me and’soze nd’ngazi nakekeli k’qala.
Mangakwata mina ang’satshelwa.
Makungab’ as’zwani k’cono sihlukane.
Estraateni ngahleka.
Ngalahlekelwa inhliziyoyam’.
Voices in my head say ngik’fak’ inhlamvu ekhanda.
Bafun’ uphumelele makungab’ bahamba nawe.
Ng’kengalahleka, ngalahlekelwa ukuz’thanda ng’ngakhon’ nok’thandaza.
I lost umalum’wam’ last year, couldn’t even cry.
I wonder why.
My heart so cold that you can see the pain even in my smile.
I know so many people who’ll never see they daughter grow up.
I know some more who died before they baby mama gave birth.
Ma’ ndiyabulela, you should’ve aborted me.
Ndazalwa uxakekile, ngapha unemployment.
I lost umalum’wam’ last year, couldn’t even cry.
I wonder why.
My heart so cold that you can see the pain even in my smile.
I know so many people who’ll never see they daughter grow up.
I know some more who died before they baby mama gave birth.
Ma’ ndiyabulela, you should’ve aborted me.
Ndazalwa uxakekile, ngapha unemployment